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When Did Abusive Sex Become Hot?

When Did Abusive Sex Become Hot?

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Let’s talk about sex. I am among the many women guilty of thinking that Christian Grey is sexy as hell, but why? When did I start thinking whips and chains were a turn on? I don’t even find that kind of sex arousing. How did I go from beautiful conscious love making with very evolved men to fantasies of spanking? It is interesting how when my self-esteem started taking a nose dive so did my standard of good sex. When I was too afraid to ask for what I wanted, I started settling for what I got. Then, I started believing I enjoyed it.
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I asked myself what was so sexy about Christian Grey. This is what I discovered.
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He is sure of himself
He is mysterious
He is passionate
He takes his time
He communicates his needs
He is vulnerable
He is warrior like
He knows who he is
He is sensual
He is strong
He does not apologize for what his desires
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So if I take the abusive qualities out of the picture, these are qualities I desire. It is not the way he likes to have sex.
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I can even take it a level further. These are the qualities I want to bring out in myself.  As women, we do not always feel comfortable being the huntress, the seductress, and the one that is in charge. Some of us have tried to embrace this part of us only to find we are left alone. We have let the warrior come out and scared the crap out of the man in the bed with us. Then, we learn to quietly go back to our cage. We learn to be docile and tame again.
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I realize I am not speaking for everyone because there are women that are very comfortable with the wilder and more dominant parts of themselves. However, I do want to address another aspect of this.
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I believe our examples of power have either been powerful men or women emulating powerful men. In my experience when I have unleashed the huntress, it has been so overwhelming and aggressive it has taken the role of the masculine in the partner dynamic. Then the masculine either has to take the role of the feminine and submit or run, which is what happens a lot of the time.
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When Did Abusive Sex Become Hot? Misha Almira
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I have since realized there is another way. When the feminine is fully embraced, the shadow aspects (repressed parts of us), can be soft and hugely alluring. It does not need to be aggressive in a combative way but can still move like the enormous surge of a Tsunami.
It can have the power equal to the masculine but with a different flavor. It does no good at all for the feminine to mimic or even submit to the masculine. This only results in a lack of respect from both sides. The masculine craves a fully balanced and empowered feminine energy. The problem has been that we have been following the lead of the masculine to find ourselves and looking in the wrong place entirely.
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The ironic part is that we have done this by the forceful hand of the masculine which has no clue how to show us our true feminine aspects. We must trust and allow these dormant pieces of ourselves to blossom from within.
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A New Paradigm - Misha Almira

A New Paradigm

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The time of letting men show us what our pleasure looks like is an outdated way. Our bodies are Divine and meant for hours of pleasure. Why would we continue to settle for a forceful and aggressive quickie when we are designed to have full body orgasms for hours? Why are we still asking them for permission and submitting to uncomfortable positions to make sure they enjoy it?
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 Our female bodies respond best when they become soft and open. Shoving something into them with aggression only causes a hardness within our bodies and souls. It forces us into a masculine space instead of in a space of soft reception. Some women have even lost their ability to have orgasms as a result of years of forcing themselves away from their natural state of openness.
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Your Need For Pleasure - Misha Almira

Your Need For Pleasure

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How many full body orgasms have you had? When was the last time you had multiple orgasms for hours and felt completely satisfied? When was the last time you felt so cherished it brought you closer to Divinity/God/Higher Self?
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It is time for us to start cherishing our bodies as more than just a vagina and tits. This may sound harsh but we have allowed magazines, porn, movies, and men to decide what is acceptable. We have followed their lead in deciding our own worth and we have put ourselves through hell trying to live up to these standards.
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Please don’t get me wrong, I am not a feminist in the traditional sense and I am by no means a man hater. I have huge admiration for the masculine that is in balance.  More than ever I am learning to honor the masculine inside myself. Because of this, I am aware of the out of balance masculine and feminine energies that have become prevalent in our world.
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It starts with us. As long as we keep following the lead of others, we will remain imprisoned in limitations. You may say, “well that is just the way men are” or “well it has always been this way and it will stay that way.” I say this is not true any longer.
You know those women that seem to have it all and yet they are not perfect models?  You try to figure out what they have that makes them so damned happy and successful and…
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What is it about them? I know a few of these and have driven myself crazy asking this same question.
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Let me ask you the more important question. Would you like to feel happy, cherished, sexier, more youthful, more empowered, more confident, or radiantly beautiful? You can. Stop and breathe this into your heart.  You can.
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Would you like to drive men crazy with desire and have a line of men wishing to serve you? Would you like to feel more bliss and pleasure? You can. It is so simple. At first, I did not even believe it. I disregarded the advice for years. I ignored it, thinking it had to be hard. Some part of me felt like I needed to suffer first. Some part of me did not think I was worth it.
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I even thought I loved myself but then my life kept showing me otherwise. It was easier to accept love that hurt than receive what I was worth. Then when I would get what I was worth, I  would find a way to sabotage it.
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This perpetual loop of getting less than I was worth, left me constantly yearning for more. I wasn’t even sure what I was longing for.
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The longing got so intense, that I finally made a change. It did not happen overnight, but it did change.
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You can make the decision right now to stop settling for less than you are worth. You can start slowly, by making a list of how you want to feel.  Make your own list and write it down. You can start with things you wish your boyfriend or significant other would do for you.  I have given a few examples below.
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I want to feel loved
I want to feel needed
I want to feel cherished
I want to feel worshiped
I want to feel young and sexy
I want to feel admired
I want to feel accomplished
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Then, take your hands and place them over your heart while you change the statements. Take 3 deep breaths between each statement. Do this every day.
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I love myself. I am loved.
I am needed.
I cherish myself. I am cherished
I worship myself. I am worshiped
I am young.
I am sexy.
I admire myself. I am admired.
I accomplish everything I set out to do. I am accomplished.
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 As you practice this, you will become aware of your needs as they come up throughout your day. When you feel yourself getting frustrated, you can stop and ask yourself what it is that you need. Then, do this exercise. You will start to feel a shift inside yourself and in others around you. It will surprise you how effective this exercise can be.
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As you get deeply in touch with your needs, you will begin to get more specific.  Allow your list to change as situations present themselves in your life.
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I am honoring and enjoying my own body more than ever.  I am no longer willing to compromise in places that do not match with my ultimate worth. The most beautiful part is that as a result of my decision to practice this, my relationships have become more incredible and rich. My world is changing around me as a result of my dedication to filling my needs.
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I began exploring sensual dance. Then, I decided to practice basic Tantra techniques which are amazingly more profound than I ever new. Even the most basic exercises can take your pleasure to a whole new level.
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The more that we as women start to recognize our needs and our true worth, the more the world will line up with us. We get to decide what is beautiful through our innate Divinity.

How to Gain Power Over Your Addiction

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How to Gain Power Over Your Addiction – Slaying One Dragon at a Time

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Let’s talk about addiction. Have you ever watched yourself doing something you know is bad for you but you do it anyway?

Do you ever find yourself not being able to stop thinking about that drink you are going to have when you get off or the chocolate cake you are going to eat tonight at dinner?

Have you ever decided to go to a party just for the food or drink? Come on admit it, you have at least done this once right? What about being more excited to have popcorn than the actual movie you are going to see?

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In the Mind of an Addict

What Happens in the Mind of the Addict?

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There are tons of books and meetings to tell you all about addiction and how to manage it. I have read a lot and I have been to the meetings. I do not disagree with any of the advice I’ve gotten from many of these sources.
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Today, I want to talk about what happens in the mind of an addict. For me, addiction starts with an emptiness. It is easy to miss.
Most of the time, we skip over the feeling and go straight to the escape, which is what substances promise us.
They promise that we will instantly feel different…better. We will feel full again. You can pick a different substance each week if you want, but it is still the same emptiness.
That is why there is addiction even after we quit drinking or taking those pills. The emptiness stays and the want to escape can make us crazy especially if we are just trying to stay away from the substance that gave us the quick fix.
Here is the deal. Feeling empty is uncomfortable.
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 Escaping Addiction - Misha Almira
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No one wants to go into a black hole or the unknown.
We don’t know what is going to jump out  or consume us. We might not ever come out! Instead of just facing the big scary empty hole inside we start to obsess about escaping it.
It starts with one thought. Then, we lose half the day just thinking about our escape.
Everyone else becomes a nuisance getting in our way of “truly being happy.”  We don’t even see what is happening.
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Now I’m going to tell you what I have discovered.
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There are predatory entities or spirits that feed on emptiness, fear, doubt, shame, guilt, remorse, hatred and disgust.
They want us to be swallowed in the emptiness so they have more to feed on and can get control over our minds.
They want to destroy you. If you have ever been deep in an addiction, you know this is true.
They are just waiting for us to start thinking negative thoughts about ourselves and about others.
They also love to feed the addictions. Alcohol, certain drugs, or anything we take too much of can become energetic portals for entities to slip through.
Ever had that feeling like you weren’t being yourself while under the influence?
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They especially love it when we obsessively think. They come in and start feeding us thoughts that perpetuate our misery.
They entice us with unhealthy thoughts of how that drink will make us feel better.
This is how we lose control of our lives through addiction. It starts with a thought and then we give our power over to these predatory thoughts and powers that influence them.
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This is not a religious thing, but if you watch it while it is happening it becomes very clear.
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I will give you an example. The other day, I was sitting at my computer and started feeling bored and hungry.
I started having thoughts about how I had no food in the house and no car to go get any. I was getting mad because my boyfriend had the car. My thoughts were just bombarding me.
I was going to go the store and get nachos and cookies. Maybe I would order pizza. Blah Blah Blah.
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Food Addiction - Misha Almira
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Then, I stopped and asked myself what was going on? I took a breath and noticed what I was feeling. I felt desperate inside, bored, hungry, and empty. There it was. Big dark and lonely emptiness.
Then I asked myself if I was okay with just feeling desperate, bored, hungry, and empty.
My body relaxed,  and I breathed in deeply. I instantly felt relief. Just allowing our current experience can give us relief. One of the bravest questions we can ask ourselves is, “how am I feeling right now?”
Our first response might be something like, “I feel like getting the hell out of here!” or “I feel annoyed by these people taking in my way!”
There is always something beneath these types of escape thoughts. They can mask as feelings. The trick is to go deeper.
Do you feel sad?
Do you feel angry?
Do you feel guilty?
Do you feel lonely?
Do you feel scared?
Our ego likes to tell us how ridiculous this is, but I dare you to really try it. I don’t mean ask yourself and then get distracted with better things. I mean ask yourself and truly feel the answer.
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If we do this often enough, we will start to realize the emptiness is the key to our ultimate fulfillment.
Each time we feel it, it becomes a little less scary. Then, all that emptiness can be filled.
We will notice our creativity coming back and our joy. We all want happiness, fulfillment, and love.
We can start by acknowledging where we are feeling empty. Then, we can work on filling it.
It sounds simple and it actually is, if you are willing to stop right now and notice. We can set an intention of filling ourselves with Divine Love.
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For information about meditation go HERE

How to Shed Our Old Skin Through Tears & Compassion

How to Shed Our Old Skin Through Tears & Compassion- How Porn led to Honor

How to Shed Our Old Skin Through Tears & Compassion  – How Porn Led to Honor

I saw a TED talk about the side effects of watching porn. This hit close to home because I’d had a couple of boyfriends that were addicted to porn. Once I went 6 months without sex, while in a relationship. He just wasn’t interested but masturbated all the time. Needless to say, this caused personal issues for me and a lot of doubt. I tried to make sense of it but always came up short with answers. I blamed myself and thought something was wrong with me for years as a result of it. Dance and sex had always been two places I could always let go and feel completely free.  I went from being very confident sexually to doubting everything.
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When I saw this TED talk from a guy that had been addicted to porn, I was very curious.
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He said he stopped watching porn for several reasons, but there was  one that really stood out for me. He said before porn, he would think about dialog with girls, caressing, and kissing. He would go through scenarios in his mind of what he would say and how she would respond. He was genuinely curious about her.
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After porn, he would think about penetration and lost interest in the other aspects he previously entertained.  He pointed out how in porn scenes they don’t use their hands. It is all focused on the genitals, with the woman usually in a very uncomfortable position. He went on to say he noticed his urges progressing into more violent desires of dominating the female. He said he noticed it got into his mind and almost seemed to take over his thoughts.
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I found this interesting especially because when this previous boyfriend would initiate sex, it was not about getting to know me but more about “getting off.” I often felt like he hadn’t even been there with me. There was little caressing, less kissing, and no genuine interest in what I liked. It was, “clothes off face down.” I accepted this because I was too uncomfortable to talk about my lack of satisfaction. I would casually mention Tantra, but that was shut down really quickly.
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Porn Addiction - NothingTo Do With You - Misha Almira
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When it occurred to me that we had gone 6 months without touching, I realized I did not even miss it…with him. I was young and had a healthy drive but really didn’t associate what we did with pleasure anymore. Any desire I did feel, I would suppress it immediately because it was usually around other men.
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I knew my boyfriend had a porn addiction and I felt helpless to change it. I had accepted that he no longer desired me. I didn’t talk about it and just let a lot of assumptions fill my mind. I lost hope that it would ever change. He said he liked his freedom to do what he wanted. I just saw the relationship ending slowly. Eventually the lack of talking and connecting killed what we once had.
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So, when I saw this man courageously standing up and talking about his addiction to porn so openly, I had so much admiration for him. I also immediately felt triggered. All these old emotions started surfacing. Those memories of that girl I once was, came to the forefront.
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I was also strangely inspired and filled with hope. I started talking to my now boyfriend about it and getting more worked up. I talked about how I wanted the whole porn industry to be shut down and human trafficking to stop.
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Before I knew it I was noticing how much this had opened my old wounds. I was stuck in blame. I was blaming men for being sleazy, and blaming women for perpetuating it. Then, I judged them for a while. I  started to notice how drained I was feeling by blaming my outside world and wanting it to change.
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“Wow, where was this downward spiral coming from? Who was I being right now?”
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I stopped and took in a deep breath. Then, I asked, “what am I feeling?” It hit me hard. I got in touch with the old anger, shame, sadness, betrayal, and feeling less than. I felt disrespected  and devalued. I let the emotions wash through me and I cried. I cried tears of remorse from all the loss I felt. I cried for all the needs I had that were ignored and neglected… by me.
“Wait, by me?” “What?”
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Through the tears, I came to see how I had turned my back on me. I cried for denying myself true fulfillment. Then, I cried tears of compassion for myself, for other women, for innocent children, and for men. I cried tears of forgiveness.
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I asked myself, “what do I need to feel honored, cherished, respected, and seen for more than just being a female body.”
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A big sigh came as I cried more tears of compassion.
I heard, “give to yourself…honor yourself.”
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I made the decision to honor myself. I questioned what that looked like but  made this my new intention. I realized the only power I had was to make a change in my perspective. I recorded the video below to share my experience after making this decision.
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We get to honor ourselves and when we do, others will follow our lead. It is time for us as women to cherish our bodies, our minds, our souls. We are temples of the Divine, only we have forgotten. It is time to remember we are Goddesses in a body.

We are not here to lower ourselves to the needs of others. We are not here to mimic the masculine as our example of power. We are not opposing the masculine or in a power play with it. It is not a competition between us and them. That is an old paradigm.

We are here to remember our radiance and inner power. We are the examples of the Empowered Feminine.

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Raise Your Standards

Trust Yourself

Know Who You Are

 

How to Change Your Frequency to Attract the Things You Really Want

Happy Couples Don't Just Happen - Misha Almira

How to Change Your Frequency to Attract the Things You Really Want

Ever wonder why some people have all the luck and some just can’t get a break? Have you asked yourself why you keep attracting jerks and are just about ready to give up on relationships entirely? What is it about some girls that seem to have it all? It doesn’t just happen by accident. Allow me to answer by going on a bit of a tangent.

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Everything in creation is vibration. Very dense matter vibrates at a slower rate. Light vibrates at a very high rate. We have all heard the saying, “faster than the speed of light.” Some light we can experience with our physical senses and some we cannot. The reason for this is we are not vibrating at a high enough frequency to perceive all light or sound waves. When people experience out of body or near death experiences, they often speak of seeing a magnificent light or light beings. They often speak of traveling some place in an instant. They are able to perceive this because they are in their light body, which is a vibrational match for other light bodies at a higher vibration.

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We cannot normally see ultraviolet light or electricity. However, we know they exist. We have also learned to work with them for our benefit.  So this directly relates to our bodies and what we are experiencing all around us.

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We are like tuning forks, constantly matching up with other tuning forks at random. Unless we learn to work with vibration intentionally for our highest benefit, we are at the mercy of our environment and our thoughts.  Where am I going with this?

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 If we are all made up of matter but our essence/soul is a light body then how do we raise our vibration in our body? How do we manifest the life we truly want?  Can you feel a difference in your body after meditating, praying, chanting, hypnosis, or even massage? Why is this? In these activities we are lining up with our higher self, our light body. We are raising our vibration by relaxing the body and allowing our bodies to match the vibration of our higher self. We are putting ourselves in a state of gratitude, love, and appreciation.
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These are all high frequencies of energy. This is actually our natural state of being. We just get distracted with dense energy outside ourselves, which lowers our vibrational frequency to match what is happening to us. We start to believe that we are just bodies, just our stress, just our relationships, and that our past dictates our future. This is not true. Just because your last boyfriend was a jerk, does not mean you have to keep being a vibrational match to him or others like him.
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Our goal is to raise our physical vibration to a higher level of frequency to match our ultimate desires, not our outside circumstances, and not what we have felt worthy of based on our past.
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You see, most of us desire love, happiness, joy, purpose, prosperity, abundance, and bliss. However, what we end up experiencing often is lack of satisfaction, poverty, anger, frustration, boredom, fear, guilt, shame, obligation, etc…
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We always experience an exact match to what we vibrate with. What this means is, if we are feeling road rage, we are an exact match for anger. That is why when we get to the office and our boss yells at us, it seems right on par with our morning. Then, our coworker makes us mad, we have to wait in lines for our lunch break so don’t have time to eat. Then, on the way home, we get pulled over for a brake light that has mysteriously gone out. We attract other situations that resonate with anger and perpetuate it. By the end of a day filled with anger, we come home to find our dog has gone to the bathroom on our bed and our kids are fighting. You get the picture right? We essentially get in our own way by what we decide to pay attention to on a regular basis. We look at it as luck, but it is a choice. This is a very basic form of self-sabotage, we just are not always aware of it. Essentially, self-sabotage is being a vibrational match to old behavior.
Everything is energy - Misha Almira
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Another way we can sabotage ourselves is by focusing on what we are doing wrong or what we can’t do. We may even feel like this is a step in the right direction to better ourselves. What we are actually doing is creating a feeling of guilt or shame. Then, we are vibrating at the level of these things. We will then create more situations in our lives that cause us to feel more guilt, shame, or unworthiness. It can be frustrating when we become aware of what we are doing wrong then everyone around us starts pointing out what we are doing wrong or how incompetent we are! Can you think of an example of this in your life? I actually lost scholarships to Universities because of this loop. I have also lost a lot of high-income opportunities as well.
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The other trap is to get caught in a loop of blaming others. It is easy to waste time and energy on blaming the boss for being a bully. The other one is to blame our wives or husbands for making us feel a certain way. Perhaps we blame the kids for making us late which ruined our whole day. This is a definite way to lower our vibration and become a vibrational match of being a victim. Then, more and more situations come up for us to be victimized and feel pathetic. This is a form of self-pity sabotage. The world can always hold you down if this is what you choose to focus on. The past only equals the future if you decide that it does.
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I am not saying it is easy to break out of old habits or abusive situations. I am saying there is a way out and it will take awareness and courage. You can have what you want even if you don’t believe it right now.
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 Focus on the Beauty of Life - Misha Almira
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The good news is we can shift any situation by intentionally putting ourselves in alignment with what we want and ONLY focusing on that. When we do this, we notice the lights turning green all the way to work, a coworker bringing us our favorite latte, the boss giving us that new account we have longed for, the cute guy down the hall finally asking us out, and the world becomes an exciting playground of possibilities.
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It is not hard. It only takes a little awareness and can make all the difference in your life. We want to raise our vibration to the level of all that we want because what we want almost always has a higher vibration than what we don’t want. Just the realization of this raises your vibration.
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How do we do raise our vibration/frequency?

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Let’s make some lists. First, make a list of all the situations that have caused you to feel guilt, shame, or fear. Take your time and be thorough. When you feel complete. Burn it immediately. Watch the smoke rise and know that you are releasing these old behaviors. Forgive yourself. Say it out loud.
  • I forgive myself.
  • I am not to blame.
  • I have not done anything wrong.
  • I forgive others.
  • Others are not to blame. (use names if it helps)
  • They have not done anything to harm me
  • I cannot be harmed.
  • I am safe.
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Now, make a list of what you love about yourself. If it is difficult, you can picture yourself as a child. You can even hold an old baby picture. Then, list as many things that you love about that baby or child. This is a way of filling your love bank account. This is essential.  Read it and add to it daily. We cannot give to others if we are empty on the inside.
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Next, send kindness and goodness to others. You can send compassion, peace, well-being, and health. Send goodness to yourself.
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What does this have to do with not attracting jerks anymore? When I diligently started doing this work, I literally pushed or vibrated an abusive man right out of my life. It was not hard and it was the best thing that could have happened to me. I have also done this to bring my soul mate into my life. If you keep focusing on all the ways your ex was a jerk, you are an exact match for all of those traits. You are putting in an order for exactly that. If you continue the exercise above to raise your vibration and then start focusing ONLY on the characteristics you want in a mate, you start resonating with that. You start drawing that to you. This works and works fast if you are diligent.

 Gain Control Over the Mind to Eliminate Self-Sabotage

Practice This For 21 Days and See What Happens!

My Battle with Darkness & Light

 

Misha Almira - Battle of Light & Dark

My Battle with Darkness & Light – Psychic Attacks & How to Protect Yourself

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There has been a battle going on inside me and in the world for a while now. It is the battle between light and dark.  I would wake up feeling drained and ready for sleep. It felt like my nights were filled with fighting entire battles.

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Even throughout the day, I would have a sense of constantly having my guard up. There was an awareness at all times on my inner world, putting up protective shields, with one eye watching psychic predators at all times. It would trigger fight or flight and was forcing me to be on high alert with my surroundings. There was a threat of allowing other beings into my field with the thoughts I was following in my mind.

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It seemed that all the work I did to increase light and raise frequency was putting out an especially attractive call to darkness. Psychic attacks are happening to more of us lately, especially if we are diligently working on raising our vibration. This is actually one of the many symptoms of the opening and moving beyond 3rd Dimension (3D).
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Af first, I was relying heavily on Archangels and Angels to protect me. What I noticed was sometimes it felt like they were not really helping me. At first I judged this as I must have offended them in some ways, or maybe I was asking too much from them. I was just noticing that when I did call them in, it did not always feel like a positive shift in energy.
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This started turning my world upside down. I was questioning everything. I was questioning my fundamental beliefs about light, dark, higher allies, God, Creator, Christ, Existence, and Divinity. What could I put my trust in? If I could not trust Angels and light beings, what could I call on for protection? What did this mean?  My whole life has been dedicated to Christ Consciousness and serving God. I was being rocked and had no clue where to look.
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Then, I became aware of several synchronicities that were occurring and they were presenting the same message. I was even seeing 1111 everywhere and waking up at 4:44 a.m.  on consecutive mornings.  I kept hearing the message, ” trust nothing outside yourself. Go within.” I was still being guided, but big questions were coming up.
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I already had an appointment scheduled to work with a Shamanic Healer that I have been working with for the past 5 years. We opened Sacred Space and it was more powerful than usual. I could feel the protection all around me. I could sense the positive energy allies. I let my guard down and decided to trust the process.
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She did a healing and tracked the source of this feeling of being haunted or stalked by darkness.  She did not feel like I’d let anything inside me which I knew. Although I still found relief in hearing someone else say it.
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Then, she tracked it back to an old contract in another lifetime. Somehow this felt right. In this past lifetime, I had committed myself to service of others. I said I was available as a conduit for beings to work through me. Some of the work was used for good and some for bad. I had agreed to both. Everything she said to me resonated because I was already getting these messages from my inner guide. Once again, I got the message to trust myself and go within.
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You see, in addition to all I’ve talked about, I also get frequent feelings of shame and guilt. I feel like somehow I am not a good person and that I’ve abused my power before. Although, I have no memories of doing this. Whenever I have tapped into my power, I instantly become afraid and shut it down by giving it away to others. I have not been able to fully embrace my power for years and have felt like I’m stuck in an elusive prison. With this new knowledge, I finally understood on a very deep level.
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Revoking Contracts
We worked on revoking these old contracts and agreements that I had made previously. I made the decision to revoke these old arrangements and to bring my power back. All the power that I had given freely. Then, as I felt my energy lightening and my energy coming back I was aware of a slight dread. It was as if I was waiting for a backlash. We continued to cut cords and then focused on bringing in the light. I set an intention to make my powers available to the light that transmutes darkness and is here for my highest good. It was safe to trust myself and my power.
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After the session, I felt free.  I felt a lightness of being and more personal power. Then, as night came, I started feeling  a slight resistance to being influenced from something. There were incidences that were triggering fear in me and I could feel  a certain vulnerability. It felt like a psychic attack. I instinctively started calling on Angels for protection but did not feel a shift. I put up my own protection and focused on activities to raise my vibration. It shifted after about 20 minutes.
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I have since become aware of a third factor in the battle between light and dark. I have written more about it HERE.