My Battle with Darkness & Light – Psychic Attacks & How to Protect Yourself
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There has been a battle going on inside me and in the world for a while now. It is the battle between light and dark. I would wake up feeling drained and ready for sleep. It felt like my nights were filled with fighting entire battles.
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Even throughout the day, I would have a sense of constantly having my guard up. There was an awareness at all times on my inner world, putting up protective shields, with one eye watching psychic predators at all times. It would trigger fight or flight and was forcing me to be on high alert with my surroundings. There was a threat of allowing other beings into my field with the thoughts I was following in my mind.
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It seemed that all the work I did to increase light and raise frequency was putting out an especially attractive call to darkness. Psychic attacks are happening to more of us lately, especially if we are diligently working on raising our vibration. This is actually one of the many symptoms of the opening and moving beyond 3rd Dimension (3D).
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Af first, I was relying heavily on Archangels and Angels to protect me. What I noticed was sometimes it felt like they were not really helping me. At first I judged this as I must have offended them in some ways, or maybe I was asking too much from them. I was just noticing that when I did call them in, it did not always feel like a positive shift in energy.
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This started turning my world upside down. I was questioning everything. I was questioning my fundamental beliefs about light, dark, higher allies, God, Creator, Christ, Existence, and Divinity. What could I put my trust in? If I could not trust Angels and light beings, what could I call on for protection? What did this mean? My whole life has been dedicated to Christ Consciousness and serving God. I was being rocked and had no clue where to look.
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Then, I became aware of several synchronicities that were occurring and they were presenting the same message. I was even seeing 1111 everywhere and waking up at 4:44 a.m. on consecutive mornings. I kept hearing the message, ” trust nothing outside yourself. Go within.” I was still being guided, but big questions were coming up.
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I already had an appointment scheduled to work with a Shamanic Healer that I have been working with for the past 5 years. We opened Sacred Space and it was more powerful than usual. I could feel the protection all around me. I could sense the positive energy allies. I let my guard down and decided to trust the process.
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She did a healing and tracked the source of this feeling of being haunted or stalked by darkness. She did not feel like I’d let anything inside me which I knew. Although I still found relief in hearing someone else say it.
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Then, she tracked it back to an old contract in another lifetime. Somehow this felt right. In this past lifetime, I had committed myself to service of others. I said I was available as a conduit for beings to work through me. Some of the work was used for good and some for bad. I had agreed to both. Everything she said to me resonated because I was already getting these messages from my inner guide. Once again, I got the message to trust myself and go within.
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You see, in addition to all I’ve talked about, I also get frequent feelings of shame and guilt. I feel like somehow I am not a good person and that I’ve abused my power before. Although, I have no memories of doing this. Whenever I have tapped into my power, I instantly become afraid and shut it down by giving it away to others. I have not been able to fully embrace my power for years and have felt like I’m stuck in an elusive prison. With this new knowledge, I finally understood on a very deep level.
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Revoking Contracts
We worked on revoking these old contracts and agreements that I had made previously. I made the decision to revoke these old arrangements and to bring my power back. All the power that I had given freely. Then, as I felt my energy lightening and my energy coming back I was aware of a slight dread. It was as if I was waiting for a backlash. We continued to cut cords and then focused on bringing in the light. I set an intention to make my powers available to the light that transmutes darkness and is here for my highest good. It was safe to trust myself and my power.
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After the session, I felt free. I felt a lightness of being and more personal power. Then, as night came, I started feeling a slight resistance to being influenced from something. There were incidences that were triggering fear in me and I could feel a certain vulnerability. It felt like a psychic attack. I instinctively started calling on Angels for protection but did not feel a shift. I put up my own protection and focused on activities to raise my vibration. It shifted after about 20 minutes.
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I have since become aware of a third factor in the battle between light and dark. I have written more about it HERE.
